Decryption

1. 7 , 30 , 5-7.
2. 7 , 21 , 1-4.
3. 7 , 18 , (2) , 1-4.

Bye for now.

Goodbye

For 2 months.

Before I leave, I'm gonna finish this up.

She was the one I fell for, I hope this feeling won't dry up just yet.
Have totally no faith whatsoever in what I'm doing.
It's too obvious but I hope we can still remain as friends.

Standing by the sidelines.

I've been watching, analyzing. What kind of a friend you people are. Yeah, I'm just you people's fucking staircase. Step on me, dirty me, go on to the next one, forgets me, use me to get to your highest point. Make sense? Fuck I've been thinking too much lately. A day out with family to Sungei Buloh, turned into an emo session for me. WTF.

I need a break. 1 more week. The long awaited break will finally arrive. We're almost there, just hang on for awhile more.

Friends

There are some friends whom, you can send emails consisting of pure bullshits and true feelings, and won't feel awkward or having second thoughts of sending it.

There are some friends that you would fall for, try your hardest to chase them, and in the end when all fails, we become strangers.

There are some friends that you know for a very short period of time, but can be very close to. We share secrets, stay up till late at night just to gossip.

There are some friends, that you don't know how you 2 became friends in the first place, but loves seeing each other because they bring a smile to your face everytime you 2 meet.

There are some friends, that are just there for the sake of being there, they are your friends because we know each others' names.

Which type are you and how many "friends" have you got? Life, don't it just suck.

Expectations

I was worried, about my grades. I was disappointed, at how low I'm gonna get for one module. But I'm glad, because I used to attain this kind of grades all the time. But now I'm aiming high. I guess some of you still haven't left me. But I know for sure this change is gonna stay forever, and you're nothing but the past.

Hope this "story" is meaningful enough to be shared with you people.

She expects nothing less than perfection. She expects the sky from him. He gives his all, only to be able to attain the clouds. The unreachable stars, could never be in his hands. Disappointment drenched her, as she leaves him for the perfect one.

Who never did try to be perfect, for he lives beyond the stars. Nothing's unattainable for him, so he takes granted of everything. She was nothing but a gem of his, in his treasure chest of gold waiting to be sold. He was too high up for her, but she held onto him. Because her dreams could be achieved, only when she's with him. But happiness couldn't be found, because they could never communicate. They had something in common, happiness comes after gold.

But as she withers is his life, she found that she needed something. Something she once had, but let slipped for greed. The average Joe who tried his best to be her prince charming, have now been dead for several good years. He had fallen to his death, while reaching for the stars. He died smiling, knowing that he had fulfilled her wish. The lifeless hand gripped onto the star, a grip tighter than anything. She loosen his cold grip, as she mourns and weep. She could never understand, how she was so foolish. To do something to someone, who did everything within his power to make her happy. She threw the star away, and lay down beside him. Tears streamed down her cheeks, as she joins him in his sleep. -#FictionsMadeBelieve

Life

When you think that life is unfair because you lack of something. Think of what you have that people lack of, and be grateful for it.
Life is never fair, because you lose something in order to gain something. You're given some things, but some things are taken away from you. Believe in teamwork, and you'll succeed. That's what I believe in after watching this video. You're weak? Use your brain. You're stupid? Use your brawn.
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=106160349437596

Hurts the most

What hurts the most is when you know the person you've fell for have already fallen for other people. It's like getting stabbed in the heart, getting fucked in the mind, getting thrown all over the place. It hurts.
I really wasn't looking when I stumbled upon you. It seems like I'm being toyed again. What's new.

Reasons

Just did a search on who created Internet. No one person invented the Internet as we know it today. However, certain major figures contributed major breakthroughs: Leonard Kleinrock, J.C.R. Licklider, Larry G. Roberts, Bob Kahn, Vint Cerf and Radia Perlman.

I don't know if any of this information I found is true. But if it's true, no thank you to you people. Internet have caused one too many deaths in the world. It caused chaos in the world, disturbed the peace of nature. Wow thanks?
But I wanna thank you people, because it brought millions and billions of people together. It gave us things to do when we're bored, gave us ways to communicate with our love ones, made it easier for us to share and learn information from anyone, anywhere.
It's kinda like a love-hate relationship.

I don't know what triggered me to blog at 3:38am.

Just the beginning

As I read the email, my heart sank. The people that wasn't selected, were the ones I thought that would get in. But 6 people had to give way, unfortunately they were the ones being sacrificed. I know the captain couldn't bear to do it, but there are things that he can't do. Thanks to being a part of the school, rules of the tournament, we have to go through this cruel part of life. Guys, girls, cheer up alright. There are many more tournaments ahead, this ain't the end of the road. Giving up now would only wash all your previous efforts down the drain. Please please, heads up and train harder. I see a bright future ahead in TPU, for every one of you.

Just the beginning

Looking beyond the imaginary line. . .

I know the answer already. I concluded it, myself. No one needs to tell me, because it's pretty obvious isn't it.
All hopes seem bleak, but I won't fall weak. I have only myself to fall back on, and I'll take the fall as it comes. I'll come back one day, stronger than ever.














I hope I'm wrong, I pray that it's nothing but a bump on the highway to heaven. Because everything I do, you're the reason behind them.

Yes, you mesmerise me
In the midst of our friendship, I fell for you.
No, I didn't tell you because I'm afraid of the outcome.
Going with the flow is all I can do now.


I don't wanna let you know because it's too soon. But people say relationship doesn't matter because of the amount of time we've known each other for. It's the common things we share, the laughters we've had, and the happiness just between us two.

I'm sorry

I can't do it. I love the net. I'm too attached to it.
Look, I've got so many things on my mind right now I don't know where to start.
I'll just go with the this.
Perfection can't be agreed upon, or deemed as it is. No one, and nothing is perfect. Because it actually depends on one's point of view to determine if it's perfect. You might think that your other half is perfect, but they might not appeal to the others. You might think that the diamond is perfect, but critics still see flaws in the crystal. And you don't have to be perfect in order to be happy. Because you already are perfect, the way you are. Just being yourself, someone will definitely find you attractive. Don't judge people, because you will also be judged if you do so. I now believe that judging people is a way of discrimination.
I'm surrounded by people, critics of their own, living their perfect lives and judging other people's imperfection. How about doing something for a change, and for once, look at their perfections. As minute as it may be, they have it. Every single being out there have their perfections. Time for a change people, because everyone have their own uniqueness.

Imma lay off the web for awhile.
Just take a step back from the cyber world, maybe think about what I've been doing

Lost

I'm currently rushing for a project due tomorrow. But I'm behind by 7 entres. I highly doubt I can finish it by tomorrow, and I'm in need of a blog therapy now.

I really don't know where these are leading me to. I know there must a tinge of feeling, but I dare not put trust in that. Because I know I'm the only one that will lose out if I do. I like how things are going, but I'm afraid at the same time. Because I'm afraid I get my hopes too high, to be crushed at the end. But I really have sunk too deep in, to pull myself out.

Only myself today, I really hope we will be on good terms after you find out. Because I have a strong feeling you already have. Goodnight to you.

Reality check

I love how I think about the most minute things.

I love how the things I think about clear things up in my mind.

But I also hate how I over-think things and make them seem worse than reality.

I hate how much I think make me not able to think properly.

I always thought I stood a chance. But they just had to ruin it. Seems like the-cold hard evidence don't lie. But I wanna twist it, make it untrue. But only in my mind, only in my dreamland, wishes come true.

I've heard enough, I've seen enough. If fate wants us together, then we shall be. But I'm gonna try, even if fate don't allow it. Because at the end of the day, we're the ones that make the difference. No one else, nothing else matters. I'm gonna have to believe, it's gonna be hard. But till the day truth reveals itself, I won't give up. No matter what.

Sure thing, I like you
Obviously, it's you that I've fallen for
Needless to say, everytime I see you my heart beats faster
Gone is the past, but I want you as my present till future

It's funny how I got inspired by one anime to blog this way. I know, some people may see it.
But I don't know if I want you to know how I feel. I'm afraid of how you would react. It's tough being in this position all over again.

Your everything

This post was inspired by Valencia.
We were chatting about ___. Then I realised how much my preference have changed.

You're the type of girl I used to detest the most.
The high type
The manly side of you
How enthusiastic you would get, and forget about your image
You joining some club thing
Your friendly-ness
Your everything

You've managed to change me. I don't know how. I count the days I've known you. I count the number of conversations we've had online, number of texts we've sent, things we've chatted about on the way back. Every action, I have it in my mind, I remember them.
I've dreamt of you for around 3 to 4 times? People say when someone appears in your dream, it means that they wanna see you. Bullshit? True? I don't know. Too good to be true.

Perfect sunset silhouette, borrow me your fortitude

Time

Dear time,
I'm not having fun at all, for quite awhile now. I tried doing something I thought might be of use to the majority. But I guess it's still not enough. I have plenty of requests for you, but I know none of them will come true.

Yours Sincerely,
Eamon

Time, fast forward would you please.
I'm suffering at this moment I'm typing this.
Nothing I do seems to be of any use,
Nothing I show seem to be of any use.
It's true that I'm incapable of the position I wanna be in.
But I did all I could and put in everything I had within.
So now that I'm of no use, you just dump me at the corner?
Put me to sleep because you think I need to be more sober?
I do things because I know I can do it,
I won't be so silly to put my future in jeopardy.

I hope no one thinks I'm talking about them. I just need somewhere I can rant and this is the only place I can think of. I kindly request you people not to think too much. It's just me that I look into the most minute things.